Sorry. Never in my life have I ever wanted to put you in a situation like we are in right now. I’ve always imagined us simply focusing on the necessary things what we have to do — you, enjoying your work and spending happy moments with our boys once you’re home from work, while me looking after our boys and keeping things organised for us. Sorry if you have to do literally everything for our family now.

Thank you. Thank you for doing everything for us. Thank you for sticking with me despite all the chaos that we’ve gotten ourselves into. Thank you for always putting me and our family on your topmost priority. Thank you for all your sacrifices. I hope you know I’ll do the same for you. Thank you for your love.

I love you. No matter what happens, I love you. During the first few days that I was in the hospital and doctors were considering all the serious illnesses  that they could associate to my worsening condition then, I was already thinking of who can replace me as your wife and as our boys’ mother. I told myself that, if the doctors would tell me that there’s a possibility of me being paralysed or dead soon, I would call someone I know and would ask her to look after you and our boys. That thought had hurt me but that would give me peace of mind and peace in my heart that eveything in your and our boys’ lives would return to normal eventually and that someone would be looking after the three of you. You and our boys are God’s most precious gifts to me; therefore, I would never leave you without the best replacement for me that there could ever be. I love you so much that I could understand if one day you would opt to have an easier life with someone so much better than me. I would never hate you for that. Although it’s still far from happening, there’s only one thing that I want you to consider: find someone who will be nice to me because I want all of us to live in peace and I would love to see her looking after our boys as if she’s also their good mother. However, once I’m completely recovered, consider my last four statements to be null and void because I love you and I would never pass you on to anyone else just like that. Until my final breath, we are married and I love you.